The Breath of Life

For sometime I have had the idea that I don't breath well. This idea includes the fact that my breathing is very shallow, I get sick very easily. This has been going on for several years now and the feeling of this was gnawing, and gnawing at me. Today I read an interesting article and it talks about the breathing of life. It talks about breathing the essence of life and I definitely agree with it. =)

My gut feeling always told me that if I breathed well my body would be telling me a different story and now I read that it is that way. If you breath in profoundly, deeply, you fill your body no only of the air you need to survive, but the spirit of life, the essence of life itself, your consciousness. It's not about the technique, or anything like that, it is just breathing life, energy, spirit, essence into your body. It even says that our bodies were made to live many more years, probably thousands ( wow! ), but that we have been cutting our life short by not breathing in life. We have been wanting to leave, go back from where we came, and so we started cutting life away from us, and we age, and we age quickly. This was brought upon by the erroneous belief that we are not good enough, that we are bad, and small, and evil. This is amazing...

My body renews itself constantly and I love the idea of breathing life into it. That is marvelous. I have to remind myself now that I should not cut energy nor life from my body. I want to live so many things, things that I have not lived because of my perfectionism and my lack of trust in myself. I have to trust that my body is equipped with all the intelligence it needs to live a healthy, perfect-weight-for-me-full-of-energy life and that all it takes is breathing in deeply, profoundly, down deep into my belly. Being aware of my breathing and making love to myself (not talking about sex mind you) will definitely bring my body back into balance.  And the best part is that it feels wonderful! It feels wonderful to breath in long, and deep into the belly, it feels good, it feels blissful, why? Because it is life.

For about a year one of the teachers at school has been telling me to go to get my body oxygenated in a special capsule. He told me that my legs would lose all the purple marks, they would clear up. When he started mentioning this to me the idea appealed to me, but down deep inside I knew that I could accomplish it by breathing correctly. Besides the treatment is expensive, so I did not go. I have known all along that the treatment is free, that my breathing has to stop being shallow. What a magnificent life mine is! What a wonderful life! All the answers I need come to me, and for that I am grateful!

How many times have we heard people say that if we are in a situation that is complicated, maybe a situation that we are uncomfortable, that we do not agree with that we should breath in deeply and count to 10? Well, guess what, it does work, it calms you down and that process just helps you breath in consciousness and it helps you see things differently. It calms you down. Once again, it is life, your essence, your spirit.

So from now on I am going to be aware of how I'm breathing, I'm going to take deep profound breaths into my belly. I'm not going to cut my life short anymore, but add to it. I am going to breath in life.

Keep the fork!

Resistance and Bothersome Things

Where do I begin...

Ok, how about beginning with what bothers me.

 Three days ago I went to my coordinator's office to hand in grades and while I was getting my sheets ready two ex-students of mine walked in and one of them told me that he was going to talk about doing level 4 ( the level I teach). They both went in with the coordinator and I overheard her tell them that Teacher Robbie would be teaching the course, that it would be two and a half hours a day instead of five, and that it would be four weeks long. This would take place in January. That bothered me. I felt jealousy pangs, strong ones. After the students left I went into her office and asked her about teaching a course during January and she told me she had nothing for me. =( More pangs... She mentioned I should stay in Tepatitlan with my son and enjoy my granddaughter. I answered that I wanted to come back with my daughter because I felt antsy and that I wanted to be making money. (There goes my fear of not having enough...ugh!)

This happens to me often. I get jealous. I want to be taken into account. I want to be considered the best teacher. I want to be asked to teach the extra courses. I want to be acknowledged. All of this, I am sure, is part of my ego, and fine, I accept it. But it does bother me to feel this. I should know better who I am. Do I really need all this recognition? Definitely not.

I left my coordinator's office feeling so miserable that I stopped to buy groceries and my mind was going over what had happened at school that I left a bag with a lettuce and sour cream in the market cart. I got home, noticed what I had done and went back to the store, feeling even worse. =( I came back home and talked to myself about the benefits of not working during January. I reminded myself that I have been making so many plans to start working on the things I like to do. I finally convinced myself, but there were slight feelings of dissatisfaction. Why dissatisfaction? I'm sure I created this, so why not be grateful?

Feeling pain in my legs and looking at the purple marks I have on them bothers me too. I have felt a great deal of resistance with this situation. I want my pretty legs back and I get frustrated because there are days I see them very purple and I get totally disappointed.

It bothers me that I might start gaining the weight that I have already lost. Oh, that really bothers me! I feel a great resistance because there are so many aches and pains in my body! Every time I run out of money, it bothers me. Sometimes, not having my way bothers me too (this is really improving).

To regain balance in every area of my life I should accept every creation of mine, be it good or bad. I should be grateful because there is order in my life and every creation is here to help me and teach me. I am exactly where I am suppose to be. My body is just beautiful and everything it is portraying is part of me. I know for sure that I am a great creator and that I only need to have patience and allow my good to appear. It will, there is no doubt about it. So my dear self, everything is great, everything is wonderful, life is beautiful and you are completely loved! Yay!!! =)

Expressing Abundance

Ok, this is going to be an eye-opener! It's about playing, but playing real games and believing them and expressing them in my life. It all comes down to expressing abundance, and obviously my question is, how do I express abundance? How do I let go if this feeling that I don't have enough? How do I let go of the fear involved in this sentiment that I have? Well, I'm sure about to discover this! My assignment right now is to answer the following questions:


What would life be like if you were rich?
If you had all the money you could ever dream of, and were able to travel; if you had that beautiful car and that beautiful home, what would you do with your time? How would you live?


I am not to answer that I would go travel around the world, nor that I would buy this or that. I have already traveled and I have bought my dream house and my dream car and everything I had wished for. Now I'm sitting in that beautiful house of mine and I'm suppose to decide what I'm going to do with my life. What do I want to do now?
I've had several dreams and I haven't been able to decide what I want to do. So here goes my first dream: I would love to own a coffee shop where I could sell a lot of goodies that I make. In that coffee shop I want to sell books, all sorts of books, and I want to have reading groups. I would help young people acquire the reading habit. I would like the reading groups to resemble a literature class where we could discuss, ask, debate and write about what the young students are reading.
In the area of the goodies I would love to make super yummy cup cakes, cake pops, pies, cakes, fudges, and all sorts of candies. I would definitely need help in this business.
My second dream, and really the order I write them does not matter, I feel strongly about all of them. I would love to have my arts and crafts shop where I could teach all sorts of arts and fun things to do. I would have all sorts of supplies to sell to the people and if they wished to participate in my courses, I would sell the kits and teach them. I would include crochet, knitting, card making, paper quilling, and origami. I don't want to limit myself with these so I would include all sorts of Christmas crafts, Valentines' Day and seasonal crafts too.
My third dream is to work on a program where people can learn a second language in less time and with less problems. I don't believe learning a second language should be so difficult.
Fourth dream is to have the time to write, write books for all ages, children, teenagers, adults. I would love to write and leave a message in my audience's mind. Messages about becoming aware of who we are and what we can do.

So as I write this I am thinking, how would I accomplish all this? I have all the money in the world, and I can open my books store and coffee shop, my arts and crafts store, and I can sit down and write because I have all the help I need in my house. The situation is that there is not enough time for me to do all this. So, which one do I choose? This is where I'm at right now in my life and because I want to do so many things, I don't do anything...

Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Students, New Blogs

What a Glion class I had!!!!! My students need so much help to get a blog started! There were so many questions and  not enough time to answer them!!! The good thing is that the majority have a blog now.

Now comes the good part... I went in to read their blogs, follow them and I could not post any comments on any of them. I couldn't even post on the blogs of my students from last semester.

So, I'm sitting here feeling frustrated that I could not solve this problem. Tomorrow will be another day and hopefully I will be able to comment on their blogs!

Welcome my dear students and give me some time to figure out what happened that I can't comment!!! =S

End of Semester in Glion

Well, it's been two weeks now since we finished classes with my 4th semester group in Glion. The majority of the students started a blog here and I do wish they would continue to use it. I know it would be quite a challenge for them unless they love to write. But, well, wishful thinking... =)


I do wish all of my students who finished 4th semester the best. May they continue to shine and do great! Above all, may they be happy because that is the only way, trusting God always! =)

One of my students thanked me and told me some wonderful things which I really appreciate. It made me realize that it is worth to be a teacher! =)

So, in August a new group will be coming my way... =) I will wait for them with open arms and a cheerful heart!

Monday Morning Breaking News

Playing with colors

Well I'm trying to write with different fonts here. Husai asked for help and I'm trying to find out.

I wish my students would get to work...

So now for an uncore!!! 

It's Ok

It's ok to feel this way. It's ok, I don't have to be perfect. Today I felt irritable and grouchy... why? I have no idea. The only thing I'm sure is that I felt very tired and with absolutely no energy all day long. It was difficult for me to go up stairs =(. It is also embarrassing... =(

I wonder when my body will recuperate at least a little bit of energy. I'm drained...

Help... =(

El Cuerpo Grita.... Lo que la boca calla...

"EL CUERPO GRITA ... LO QUE LA BOCA CALLA"



"La enfermedad es un conflicto entre la personalidad y el alma".
Bach.

Muchas veces...

El resfrío "chorrea" cuando el cuerpo no llora.
El dolor de garganta "tapona" cuando no es posible comunicar las aflicciones.
El estómago arde cuando las rabias no consiguen salir.
La diabetes invade cuando la soledad duele.
El cuerpo engorda cuando la insatisfacción aprieta.
El dolor de cabeza deprime cuando las dudas aumentan.
El corazón afloja cuando el sentido de la vida parece terminar.
La alergia aparece cuando el perfeccionismo está intolerable.
Las uñas se quiebran cuando las defensas están amenazadas.
El pecho aprieta cuando el orgullo esclaviza.
La presión sube cuando el miedo aprisiona.
Las neurosis paralizan cuando el niño interior tiraniza.
La fiebre calienta cuando las defensas explotan las fronteras de la inmunidad.
Las rodillas duelen cuando tu orgullo no se doblega.
El cáncer mata cuando te cansas de "vivir".
Y tus dolores callados? Cómo hablan en tu cuerpo?

La Enfermedad no es mala, te avisa que te estas equivocando de camino.Me parece bonito compartir este mensaje:

El camino a la felicidad no es recto. Existen curvas llamadas EQUIVOCACIONES, existen semaforos llamados AMIGOS, luces de precaucion llamadas FAMILIA, y todo se logra si tienes: Una llanta de repuesto llamada DECISION, un potente motor llamado AMOR, un buen seguro llamado FE, abudante combustible llamado PACIENCIA, pero sobre todo un experto conductor llamado DIOS

Education

Baking a Cake

What in the world happened to me today? Well, I told my daughter I would bake a cake for a friend and guess what? I forgot to spray the pans with Spam... =(. Right now I am trying to figure out how I will get those cakes out of the pans and if they will be in one piece. Let me go and try it and I will be back with a picture to let you know the results of such a situation in my everyday kitchen activities... =)

Well, well!!! I was able to take it out of the pans and decorate it. Here is a picture of my almost masterpiece! =) (For a minute I thought I would have to make another one...)

Short Story

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Five Card Story: Creativity

a Five Card Flickr story created by GoldisJewel

flickr photo by spacedlawyer

flickr photo by Serenae

flickr photo by cogdogblog

flickr photo by Choconancy1

flickr photo by hummingcrow

Creativity can be found everywhere! Having your toenails done a bright colors with decorations is one way. Maybe drawing scenes that have a great impact on you. Dancing the belly dance is another way. Designing sculptures just like MichaelAngelo did. And last but not least is creating special dishes in the kitchen. Enjoy!

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It's All About Education

It’s All About Education

So many unanswered questions come into my mind when I stop to think about the present situation that schools are going through. The most urgent one is DISCIPLINE. Where do we begin to make things better for everyone involved, especially our students? How do we approach the titanic task of teaching character education?

A couple of days ago I was sitting in the cafeteria of our school having breakfast with a couple of teachers. We sat there sharing our everyday experiences we face in the classroom. While we were there, a group of students came in, joined some tables, and sat down to enjoy some time off. I should add that I’m not even sure if these students were supposed to be there because it was not recess time for anyone. The students began getting quite noisy and disruptive which made me stand up with the intention of going over and asking them to lower the volume. I was stopped by my colleagues telling me that it was not my place to say anything to the students because it was there ‘free time’.

I felt quite embarrassed but I decided to let it go at that and think it over before reacting and saying things I should not. The students, in the meantime, kept on with their shouting and rowdiness. I left the cafeteria with a lot of questions which I immediately vowed to find answers to.

First I decided to pose the questions to my groups without involving my colleagues. I presented the scenario and asked them if it would have been inappropriate for me to go over and ask these students to lower the volume. To my surprise, the majority said it was what a teacher should do and that I should have gone over and talked to them. Only one student said he did not agree mentioning that these students were in recess and should be allowed to do as they pleased. I asked him that if being in recess gave them that right and he thought about it and realized that no.

Then I thought about the comment my colleagues said that if the people managing that cafeteria did not ask them to lower the volume, then I could not. As I see it, the cafeteria is on school grounds and owned by the school. I firmly believe the school should be responsible for dictating the code of conduct for the cafeteria. The managers are there to sell food and sure enough do not want to lose clientele, so they will not be calling anyone’s attention.

We then come to the teachers. What is our job? Are we there to ignore these situations excusing ourselves that it does not correspond to us? I strongly disagree. We are there to take advantage of every situation where we can make a difference. We are there to guide and help students be better persons. We are there to show them that it is not only the classroom that requires appropriate behavior. We are there not to fill them with information, but to EDUCATE. It is our duty as teachers to exemplify GOOD CHARACTER, which is the primary product of education.

I’m sure we all want to see our students making good judgments every day. We want to see students seeking wisdom, acting virtuously, valuing truth, wisdom, hard work, honesty, compassion, empathy, enlightenment, and love of knowledge. To accomplish this, we have to be there to help them, even though they might show resistance and reluctance and even despise us at the moment. In the end, they will appreciate that we took the time to help them improve.

In conclusion, I want to see the educational system working well and the best indicator is the character of our students. There is no doubt that the indelible mark of the school can be seen on the students, and that dear teachers, definitely involves all of us and administrative staff working together to accomplish this.

Keep the fork!

Blanca Julia Garza

Quote

Sometimes it’s okay.  Sometimes it’s not one desperate act after another.  Sometimes we hear the music that is always there.  As the old Irish homily goes:  “The most beautiful music is the music of what happens.”  It is not necessary to run to a remote, quiet place to hear it.  It is here already, always.  The essence of eternity is how we experience the present.  The witnesses are here in ourselves.  The fullness of our inheritance denies nothing.

~ Terrance Keenan

I  read this quote in another blog and I had to copy it. I loved it!
Thank you Bountiful Healing !

Getting Started

I'm just trying this out. I already have a blog and maybe I should import it. =)