For sometime I have had the idea that I don't breath well. This idea includes the fact that my breathing is very shallow, I get sick very easily. This has been going on for several years now and the feeling of this was gnawing, and gnawing at me. Today I read an interesting article and it talks about the breathing of life. It talks about breathing the essence of life and I definitely agree with it. =)
My gut feeling always told me that if I breathed well my body would be telling me a different story and now I read that it is that way. If you breath in profoundly, deeply, you fill your body no only of the air you need to survive, but the spirit of life, the essence of life itself, your consciousness. It's not about the technique, or anything like that, it is just breathing life, energy, spirit, essence into your body. It even says that our bodies were made to live many more years, probably thousands ( wow! ), but that we have been cutting our life short by not breathing in life. We have been wanting to leave, go back from where we came, and so we started cutting life away from us, and we age, and we age quickly. This was brought upon by the erroneous belief that we are not good enough, that we are bad, and small, and evil. This is amazing...
My body renews itself constantly and I love the idea of breathing life into it. That is marvelous. I have to remind myself now that I should not cut energy nor life from my body. I want to live so many things, things that I have not lived because of my perfectionism and my lack of trust in myself. I have to trust that my body is equipped with all the intelligence it needs to live a healthy, perfect-weight-for-me-full-of-energy life and that all it takes is breathing in deeply, profoundly, down deep into my belly. Being aware of my breathing and making love to myself (not talking about sex mind you) will definitely bring my body back into balance. And the best part is that it feels wonderful! It feels wonderful to breath in long, and deep into the belly, it feels good, it feels blissful, why? Because it is life.
For about a year one of the teachers at school has been telling me to go to get my body oxygenated in a special capsule. He told me that my legs would lose all the purple marks, they would clear up. When he started mentioning this to me the idea appealed to me, but down deep inside I knew that I could accomplish it by breathing correctly. Besides the treatment is expensive, so I did not go. I have known all along that the treatment is free, that my breathing has to stop being shallow. What a magnificent life mine is! What a wonderful life! All the answers I need come to me, and for that I am grateful!
How many times have we heard people say that if we are in a situation that is complicated, maybe a situation that we are uncomfortable, that we do not agree with that we should breath in deeply and count to 10? Well, guess what, it does work, it calms you down and that process just helps you breath in consciousness and it helps you see things differently. It calms you down. Once again, it is life, your essence, your spirit.
So from now on I am going to be aware of how I'm breathing, I'm going to take deep profound breaths into my belly. I'm not going to cut my life short anymore, but add to it. I am going to breath in life.
Keep the fork!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Resistance and Bothersome Things
Where do I begin...
Ok, how about beginning with what bothers me.
Three days ago I went to my coordinator's office to hand in grades and while I was getting my sheets ready two ex-students of mine walked in and one of them told me that he was going to talk about doing level 4 ( the level I teach). They both went in with the coordinator and I overheard her tell them that Teacher Robbie would be teaching the course, that it would be two and a half hours a day instead of five, and that it would be four weeks long. This would take place in January. That bothered me. I felt jealousy pangs, strong ones. After the students left I went into her office and asked her about teaching a course during January and she told me she had nothing for me. =( More pangs... She mentioned I should stay in Tepatitlan with my son and enjoy my granddaughter. I answered that I wanted to come back with my daughter because I felt antsy and that I wanted to be making money. (There goes my fear of not having enough...ugh!)
This happens to me often. I get jealous. I want to be taken into account. I want to be considered the best teacher. I want to be asked to teach the extra courses. I want to be acknowledged. All of this, I am sure, is part of my ego, and fine, I accept it. But it does bother me to feel this. I should know better who I am. Do I really need all this recognition? Definitely not.
I left my coordinator's office feeling so miserable that I stopped to buy groceries and my mind was going over what had happened at school that I left a bag with a lettuce and sour cream in the market cart. I got home, noticed what I had done and went back to the store, feeling even worse. =( I came back home and talked to myself about the benefits of not working during January. I reminded myself that I have been making so many plans to start working on the things I like to do. I finally convinced myself, but there were slight feelings of dissatisfaction. Why dissatisfaction? I'm sure I created this, so why not be grateful?
Feeling pain in my legs and looking at the purple marks I have on them bothers me too. I have felt a great deal of resistance with this situation. I want my pretty legs back and I get frustrated because there are days I see them very purple and I get totally disappointed.
It bothers me that I might start gaining the weight that I have already lost. Oh, that really bothers me! I feel a great resistance because there are so many aches and pains in my body! Every time I run out of money, it bothers me. Sometimes, not having my way bothers me too (this is really improving).
To regain balance in every area of my life I should accept every creation of mine, be it good or bad. I should be grateful because there is order in my life and every creation is here to help me and teach me. I am exactly where I am suppose to be. My body is just beautiful and everything it is portraying is part of me. I know for sure that I am a great creator and that I only need to have patience and allow my good to appear. It will, there is no doubt about it. So my dear self, everything is great, everything is wonderful, life is beautiful and you are completely loved! Yay!!! =)
Ok, how about beginning with what bothers me.
Three days ago I went to my coordinator's office to hand in grades and while I was getting my sheets ready two ex-students of mine walked in and one of them told me that he was going to talk about doing level 4 ( the level I teach). They both went in with the coordinator and I overheard her tell them that Teacher Robbie would be teaching the course, that it would be two and a half hours a day instead of five, and that it would be four weeks long. This would take place in January. That bothered me. I felt jealousy pangs, strong ones. After the students left I went into her office and asked her about teaching a course during January and she told me she had nothing for me. =( More pangs... She mentioned I should stay in Tepatitlan with my son and enjoy my granddaughter. I answered that I wanted to come back with my daughter because I felt antsy and that I wanted to be making money. (There goes my fear of not having enough...ugh!)
This happens to me often. I get jealous. I want to be taken into account. I want to be considered the best teacher. I want to be asked to teach the extra courses. I want to be acknowledged. All of this, I am sure, is part of my ego, and fine, I accept it. But it does bother me to feel this. I should know better who I am. Do I really need all this recognition? Definitely not.
I left my coordinator's office feeling so miserable that I stopped to buy groceries and my mind was going over what had happened at school that I left a bag with a lettuce and sour cream in the market cart. I got home, noticed what I had done and went back to the store, feeling even worse. =( I came back home and talked to myself about the benefits of not working during January. I reminded myself that I have been making so many plans to start working on the things I like to do. I finally convinced myself, but there were slight feelings of dissatisfaction. Why dissatisfaction? I'm sure I created this, so why not be grateful?
Feeling pain in my legs and looking at the purple marks I have on them bothers me too. I have felt a great deal of resistance with this situation. I want my pretty legs back and I get frustrated because there are days I see them very purple and I get totally disappointed.
It bothers me that I might start gaining the weight that I have already lost. Oh, that really bothers me! I feel a great resistance because there are so many aches and pains in my body! Every time I run out of money, it bothers me. Sometimes, not having my way bothers me too (this is really improving).
To regain balance in every area of my life I should accept every creation of mine, be it good or bad. I should be grateful because there is order in my life and every creation is here to help me and teach me. I am exactly where I am suppose to be. My body is just beautiful and everything it is portraying is part of me. I know for sure that I am a great creator and that I only need to have patience and allow my good to appear. It will, there is no doubt about it. So my dear self, everything is great, everything is wonderful, life is beautiful and you are completely loved! Yay!!! =)
Monday, December 12, 2011
Expressing Abundance
Ok, this is going to be an eye-opener! It's about playing, but playing real games and believing them and expressing them in my life. It all comes down to expressing abundance, and obviously my question is, how do I express abundance? How do I let go if this feeling that I don't have enough? How do I let go of the fear involved in this sentiment that I have? Well, I'm sure about to discover this! My assignment right now is to answer the following questions:
What would life be like if you were rich?
If you had all the money you could ever dream of, and were able to travel; if you had that beautiful car and that beautiful home, what would you do with your time? How would you live?
I am not to answer that I would go travel around the world, nor that I would buy this or that. I have already traveled and I have bought my dream house and my dream car and everything I had wished for. Now I'm sitting in that beautiful house of mine and I'm suppose to decide what I'm going to do with my life. What do I want to do now?
I've had several dreams and I haven't been able to decide what I want to do. So here goes my first dream: I would love to own a coffee shop where I could sell a lot of goodies that I make. In that coffee shop I want to sell books, all sorts of books, and I want to have reading groups. I would help young people acquire the reading habit. I would like the reading groups to resemble a literature class where we could discuss, ask, debate and write about what the young students are reading.
In the area of the goodies I would love to make super yummy cup cakes, cake pops, pies, cakes, fudges, and all sorts of candies. I would definitely need help in this business.
My second dream, and really the order I write them does not matter, I feel strongly about all of them. I would love to have my arts and crafts shop where I could teach all sorts of arts and fun things to do. I would have all sorts of supplies to sell to the people and if they wished to participate in my courses, I would sell the kits and teach them. I would include crochet, knitting, card making, paper quilling, and origami. I don't want to limit myself with these so I would include all sorts of Christmas crafts, Valentines' Day and seasonal crafts too.
My third dream is to work on a program where people can learn a second language in less time and with less problems. I don't believe learning a second language should be so difficult.
Fourth dream is to have the time to write, write books for all ages, children, teenagers, adults. I would love to write and leave a message in my audience's mind. Messages about becoming aware of who we are and what we can do.
So as I write this I am thinking, how would I accomplish all this? I have all the money in the world, and I can open my books store and coffee shop, my arts and crafts store, and I can sit down and write because I have all the help I need in my house. The situation is that there is not enough time for me to do all this. So, which one do I choose? This is where I'm at right now in my life and because I want to do so many things, I don't do anything...
Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What would life be like if you were rich?
If you had all the money you could ever dream of, and were able to travel; if you had that beautiful car and that beautiful home, what would you do with your time? How would you live?
I am not to answer that I would go travel around the world, nor that I would buy this or that. I have already traveled and I have bought my dream house and my dream car and everything I had wished for. Now I'm sitting in that beautiful house of mine and I'm suppose to decide what I'm going to do with my life. What do I want to do now?
I've had several dreams and I haven't been able to decide what I want to do. So here goes my first dream: I would love to own a coffee shop where I could sell a lot of goodies that I make. In that coffee shop I want to sell books, all sorts of books, and I want to have reading groups. I would help young people acquire the reading habit. I would like the reading groups to resemble a literature class where we could discuss, ask, debate and write about what the young students are reading.
In the area of the goodies I would love to make super yummy cup cakes, cake pops, pies, cakes, fudges, and all sorts of candies. I would definitely need help in this business.
My second dream, and really the order I write them does not matter, I feel strongly about all of them. I would love to have my arts and crafts shop where I could teach all sorts of arts and fun things to do. I would have all sorts of supplies to sell to the people and if they wished to participate in my courses, I would sell the kits and teach them. I would include crochet, knitting, card making, paper quilling, and origami. I don't want to limit myself with these so I would include all sorts of Christmas crafts, Valentines' Day and seasonal crafts too.
My third dream is to work on a program where people can learn a second language in less time and with less problems. I don't believe learning a second language should be so difficult.
Fourth dream is to have the time to write, write books for all ages, children, teenagers, adults. I would love to write and leave a message in my audience's mind. Messages about becoming aware of who we are and what we can do.
So as I write this I am thinking, how would I accomplish all this? I have all the money in the world, and I can open my books store and coffee shop, my arts and crafts store, and I can sit down and write because I have all the help I need in my house. The situation is that there is not enough time for me to do all this. So, which one do I choose? This is where I'm at right now in my life and because I want to do so many things, I don't do anything...
Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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